There's
nothing like that very day when that dream girl of yours smiles back at
you,just can't help but replay it over and over again in your mind.It's
a day you can't forget, that day is when you realize that your dream of
making her your soul mate is finally on course.Then,another
unforgettable day, the day she finally says yes. Trust me, euphoria is
an understatement to the excitement you feel for that very moment,
because she's yours now and forever, as you think with optimism.
Life as we know it, is full of uncertainties, I heard someone say
that everyone will experience a broken heart at least once in a lifetime, how
true that is,I don't know. There comes that time when you realize some
little cracks in the relationship,you try hard to solve them but it just
doesn't work. That is when you notice the signs, but love blinds you so
bad so you just try to live with it.
Then,the Big Bang! She tells you it's OVER!! You laugh it over, "No
it's not over" you think,hoping her decision will roll over, believing
it's one of them "girlie" tests. Days go by and she still doesn't change her mind, then you think to
yourself, "Should I be the perfect gentleman and let her go or become
the savage and go after her with all guns blazing just to get her back
no matter what." You realize you can't handle it, so you tell her best
friend, she tries her best to convince her but it doesn't change a
thing, now you slowly begin to accept the harsh merciless reality,she's
gone and never coming back. Like the waves of the sea her love got so close to you but now its gone. Now almost every 30 minutes, you check your
phone to see if she messaged or called but you don't see her name in the
log, your heart skips a beat each time you hear the phone ring. You
answer wishing it was her only to hear the voice of your boys or an
annoying friend. You wish she'd at least message but that message never comes and you stay awake all through the night because you know she'll pop in your memories when you close your eyes. The moment you hear that song you both loved, memories of her
flood your mind like a rushing river, you break down and turn the music
off, you go through all the messages and realise how close and happy you
and her were, you just can't help but miss her.
Time flies and moments grow old, you wonder if you have to hold on and wait in case she changes her mind, or you're just wasting your time so you just have to move on. She never said goodbye but you can sense "goodbye" in the few replies she gives you. Then you hear what you've always feared, she's got herself a better man.You get hurt so bad and then you wonder if you were ever good enough for her, you look at her photos and can't believe you had a diamond under all that dust, can't believe the chance you've lost.You shiver invisibly, fall apart silently and reality becomes a live nightmare as you try to make your heart understand it's finally over.You try hard to smile through it all but the pain is like an arrow straight through your heart. Folks around you tell you to get over it, but trying to simply forget her is like remembering every word you said ten years ago, feels like quicksand, the harder you try to get out, the deeper you sink. Not so long ago, she was your Lois Lane and you were her Superman, but now she's gone forever so you become Wolverine and she becomes your moon, because all you can do is just miss her and howl at her. One thing I know is that broken heart is like a wound, it hurts so bad, but with time it will heal and all the pain will go away.Sometimes the scar remains and that scar is the memories we have of that one special person. Love is wonderful,makes you fly without wings but sometimes,just sometimes,it's Lots Of Vague Emotions(L.O.V.E).
